28/9/05
BAD.that probably sums up the past two days.first time im using red fonts,so you can see how dire the situation is for me at the moment.its freaking BAD.got almost all my Prelims results back.and sad to say.im so damn disappointed.so far,i've only seen Bs and lower.no As.wow.im in so much crap now.
Subjects that i've been looking foward to get my results from have come back with very,very disappointing results.on the other hand,POA proved to be a surprise grade as i was expecting something lower.but thats the end of the happy story.now begins the sickening part.most sickening of all has to go to the likes of my Eng & SS.my grades has taken such a HUGE fall,im beginning to doubt my ability to do properly for the impending 'O's.Maths?dont even talk about it.i think its about time i do a quarantine on myself.lock myself up and keep no further contact with the outside world.i wonder?the results have not finished their killer blows,and expected killer blows are to come tomorrow,which will probably ruin my mood for the entire week.enough said.
News nowadays have been portrayed in reports such as racism,discrimination,sterotyping,etc,in blogs of students.if these individuals have been really guilty of such acts,i believe their punishments will be rightly deserved.however,i would like to stake my claim here that i've nothing against the different races.im absolutely against racism.
With that all said,i think my frequency of blogging now will probably go down a lot.but it ain't surprising considering the results i've achieved.i've got to start bucking up and rolling up my sleeves if i want to leave the school next year with a smile on my face.so till then,i'll try to blog as often as i can.
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black-heys.beiying,i noe which is the real u now.dun worry.relax.tc girl.
others-thks for popping by.tc.
chao
=sliced by jagged swords=
26/9/05Finally.the much dreaded Prelims is over.the wait was long and suffering.but heck,it was worth it.as we wheel away to "celebrate" the end of Prelims,we face yet another much more daunting prospect.and my friend wouldnt have put it more aptly."as we're done with this level of hell,lets get ready for the next level."how true it must be.the last papers were settled by today,and thankfully,probably due to the blessings from that sweet girl,Mat,i was able to do the Sci MCQ without too much difficulty.thank heavens.at least it wasnt screwed up as the other papers i must say.
Happened to have a Chinese 'O' level pre-test today as well.paper wasnt as tough as what many of us have expected.but i still left out quite an amount of marks.well,its chinese after all.no offence,but i hate it.Proceeded to have lunch with the usual bunch,and nothing out of the ordinary happened.but still managed to find out that a close friend's relatives are migrating to Australia.yes,the land where the laid back lifestyle is actually ever present.was saying tongue in cheek to him,telling him to ask his relatives to bring me along with them.crap.had always been harbouring the thought of migrating there.and that thought is still alive.well,people need dreams and aspirations to keep them going,dont they?
Got to somewhere near my place for some much needed exercise.played soccer,which is a sport that actually seemed foreign to me for a while.well,the ol'legs have'nt been moving too much,but soccer was just the right tonic.also managed to kill off some inner demons in me.stress that is.after all the continuous mugging and endless formulas,de-stressing was high up on the list.
But stress,would be in me for the next few days,weeks.as i prepare myself to face those fluncuating results.crap.ohh well.thats all for today's story.till the next time.tc.
chao
=one last sad song=
21/9/05
Managed to squeeze a little time here to blog today.wow.what a week.although its not over,its impression is lasting enough.mostly screwed up.well,whats new?hmm.just wanna have a quick post before making my way to the study room to cram on my POA.for your info,the dreaded Prelims aint over yet.
Mon and Tues.Had my humanities papers the past two days.as well as Physics and Maths paper 1.Humanities thankfully,didnt prove to as tough as i've imagined.so the elusive A grade is still very much attainable.hopefully.the other two papers?forget it.only have one word to describe it.SCREWED.damn.enough said.
Today happened to be both our Chemistry & Maths paper 2.dont wanna talk about maths.its really screwed.always screwed i should say.Chem proved to be like what was on everyone's lips,"it was much easier than Mid Year.".got the hint.same goes for me.and amazingly,it would probably be my Chem pulling my Phy marks up.for the first time.so naturally i was a little emotional.took it out on a few of the guys.Sorry dudes.you just cant imagine the feeling i felt when i compared my answers with the "smarties".contrasting to a large extent.damn.at least it was a little burden off my shoulders after today.whats left:POA,Art,Sci MCQ.lets hope the screwed up days will lessen.otherwise i'll probably have to kill myself or something.lol.guess i'll end it here.let the prayers begin.hah.
Tagboard replies:JJ-racist?whoa dude.better watch urself.the officials r gonna check ur URL.not
mine.watch wat u say.seriously.
Agnes-heys.thks for linking.will link u bck.tc girl.
Sugars-heys.ya i'll cheer up.thks for ur concern.talk to u soon.u tc as well.
chao
=one more sad song=
15/9/05
What a stupid day.normally my days would be screwed,but today happens to be more screwed than usual.damn.im getting sick of this shit already.
Lets see.began the day by getting a severe cramp in my leg when i woke up.nearly blacked out i think.what a way to begin your day huh.the day just proceeded on to get worse.
Got back my MT results back today.wow.guess what i got.its another C5.its as stagnant as the waters containing those mosquito larve.fuck.well i guess i shouldnt complain too much perhaps.at least i didnt get a notch lower like some others.so,in a way.but its still screwed.fucking screwed.thought that was the worst of the day.how wrong can i be.
How wrong did i get?well.when we were having our relief period during Physics,halfway through we had to shift from the hall to the library for some fucked up reason which really bewilders me.got to the library,waited a good 15mins outside it just because they had to check whether we were supposed to be there.man.that was really the boiling point.why the heck must we be sent to the library if the librarian doesnt even know about our arrival in the first place?fuck.really ruined my mood for the rest of the day.
Been really a screwed up day.dont know what else to say.lets close this chapter for today.
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chao
=i'll melt with you=
14/9/05The countdown has begun.barely a week left before Prelims "officially" starts.damn.been thinking.its about time i stop posting about boring lessons.because the fact is IT is Boring.ohh well.now and for good i'll blog about stuff worth blogging about.thats better.
Recess was particularly interesting today as we sat around and talked about our Future.yup you didnt see wrongly.it was on our future.something like 10years down the road what would we be doing and stuffs like that.had us really thinking.what would we be 10years down the road?a successful person?or a loser that is jobless?the thought of the latter just shudders me up.cant imagine and dont want to imagine me being the latter.simply cant let that happen.we discussed and among us we see a few musicians,sailors(or is it sailor instead?hah.),lawyers,DJs.the list just goes on and on.and im sure they'll achieve their futures.for sure.hah.
Maths was actually great today.well,before you say,"Samuel likes Maths?".chill.i wasnt talking about the lesson.Maths will always be a pain in the neck and a bore for me.it was rather the 1hr plus talk i had with this fellow classmate.same class for like 1yr and 9months.but after the talk,i've actually know more about this guy than i've know about him in the past 1yr plus.hah.always loved listening to other people's life stories.never fails to bore me and shock me.for sure.
Been suffering from a bad case of flu since yesterday.damn.must the stress.last thing i need really.to get sick and all.feeling so tired.but when i lie on my bed my eyes just cant seem to close.what the hell.who knows before i even got to the prelims,i'll collapse and die?hmm.not bad.lol.just kidding.well.guess i'll end here.tc all.chill.
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chao
=i'll melt with you=
12/9/05Another week has passed,and the exams are just looking to be getting closer and closer.damn.well,last week was such a bore,didnt have much to blog about.mugging so hard now im on the very verge of insanity.lol.sometimes wish i can give it all up.but the price's too high isnt it?hah.oh well.lets quickly begin on Today,my English Prelims.
It was pretty ok,i guess.Paper 1's situational writing proved to be a major stumbling block for many of us,including me,as i stared dumbfounded at the question.lol.lets hope i'll be able to scrap through on that part.chose a pretty easy topic for compo,so a little more confident in that part.lets all pray hard.hah.Paper 2 was a killer.questions on the passages were fine,but it was the darn summary which proved to a real killer question.had so many points that i ended up cutting more than i should be.lets just say it wasnt a good day for english.lol.but the usual A1 students will be getting it again im pretty sure.you know who you are.hah.
Went over to Queensway to get something and to de-stress.needed it after the energy sapping english paper.didnt really managed to get what i wanted,walked around abit,and saw lots of stuff i really want to get.damn i cant wait for Prom Night.hopefully i can get a high budget to get my apparel and all.already made a pact with Ken to get our clothes at Queensway.hah.whoa.think im really thinking too much about Prom.darn.just cant wait for everything to end.seriously.the stress's taking my life i tell you.maybe i can sleep forever?like in death?now that would be interesting.lol.ohh what the heck.guess i'll end here.pretty short post.but seriously nothing much to blog about.will blog soon.tc.
Tagboard replies:to everyone-thks for popping by.no matter who you are.tc.
chao
=angel to you,devil to me=
5/9/05
Let's count thy days that i've missed blogging.hmm.4days?hahs.what the heck.nothing much to blog about really.well.guess i'll focus on Friday and Today.
Friday.well.it was the start of our Prelims,and our first paper was none other than the 2nd subject i fear the most-Mother Tongue.damn.guess the essay writing was quite ok.i guess.lol.but paper2 was a darn Killer.and i mean damn killer.tough it was.but hopefully i'll be able to pull off at least a pass?not very optimistic i know.but my chinese's really bad now.the only people i speak that language to is my grandparents.i think thats about 1%of what i produce out of my mouth?hah.lets pray that i'll be able to pass this one.hah.but one thing-it was nice to get the exam stress back.seriously.its been awhile since the last major exam.so.in a way its nice to get the exam mentality back.really nice.hah.after the demoralising exam,went over to Ken's crib to chill.man it was like a mini party.about 6 of us?the house was filled with endless laughter and a little snoring.no names mentioned.hah.stayed there for a rather long time.was slacking all the way.lol.
Today was the start of our one week holidays.wait.What Holidays?today happens to mark the first day of our remediation programme.-STAR Programme.how nice isnt it?its on till Thurs,but one other class has to come back even on Friday.thank god im not in that class.lol.English and Physics was on today's menu.went ok.at least it wasnt BORING.day passed rather quickly.thankfully.went to have lunch with the usual bunch.then for the records,went over to Ken's again.hah.just to good a place to miss right Scott?hah.too much.but well.chilled around for awhile before making my way home.its gonna be a really boring and tiring and stressful week for us.thought that holidays were supposed to be relaxing and soothing?think again.
Well.let me dedicate this small portion to my bud,Eoin.you've been really stressed out these few days we know.its darn obvious dude.pretty sure its that matter that's bothering your mind.but dude,seriously.let it pass man.no point letting this affect your mood and ESPECIALLY,your studies.we need to talk.big time.just try to ease thing off.im darn sure the masses are in acknowledgement of what i said above.tc bro.
chao
-pretty in punk-
=blog out=
